Ok, so most of you know that the last year has been a super challenging one for me and my family with our sweet little Cooper and all of his problems and heart surgeries. I just love him more than words can say and I am SO happy to report that his last surgery went great and he is home again and doing well! I am SO relieved, and as I sat up at the hospital with him night and day I had a lot of time to think about things...life in general and how I want mine to be.
It is a bit scary having a "heart baby" especially one with the problems Cooper has. Although his surgery was successful there is still a chance that the subaortic membrane will return, requiring more and more open-heart surgeries. The thought of having a lifetime of surgeries is of course not appealing to me but no matter what I do I cannot make it all better. It's just one of those things in life that is out of my control and I hate not being in control! Seeing him go through so much the last few weeks has really made me realize how much he truly needs me. Although he is back to his busy, happy little self he still needs me and will continue to need me everyday, and so do my other 2 darling boys.
For the last 3 years I feel like I have been doing a balancing act...being a photographer, running a boutique, being a wife, mom, sister, daughter, friend, neighbor, YW leader, etc, etc, etc...it is just starting to become a bit much for me. I used to be pretty dang good at the whole balancing thing, people would ask me all the time how I did it and to be honest I didn't think twice about any of it. I loved my job and I loved my family and it all just worked. Sure it was stressful sometimes, but I made it work...but when all of this started happening with Cooper everything came crashing down and now I don't know how to get the balance back in my life.
I want to be the best mommy I can be and I want to live my life with no regrets. Going through this trial has made me realize just how precious life is and I want to enjoy every single minute with my boys...they just grow up too darn fast!
I am torn because I love my job so much and I have put so much time, money, effort, and energy into it that there is just no way I could call it quits and I don't think it would make me a better person if I did either. I love it too much and it is now a part of me...a part of me that I can't let go of. So, after thinking about this decision for quite awhile I have decided that I am going to try something new with the boutique and I hope you all like it! It is the new and improved version of my "balancing act." I have decided that instead of being open 5 days a week like I have been doing for the past 2 years I am going to try something new and we will be open every other weekend for a little "blissful boutique." We will be open every other Thursday, Friday, and Saturday and select holidays as well and we will be bringing you even more hot new trends and fun accessories for everyone!
I will be hand-picking each vendor myself and it will be a big event with treats, fun things to do, and the hottest new fashions and products in Utah! I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT THIS! I think it will be great because I will now be able to offer so many fun things that I just didn't have the room to carry before and I will also be able to offer new things every week without putting so much of my own time and money into doing it all. It will allow me to still do my photography, keep my awesome building, put on an amazing boutique on the weekends and spend more time with my boys and hubby...it's a win-win situation, don't you think?!
If you are interested in being a part of the boutique please contact me asap for details. Space is limited and is already going super fast! I have already got some great vendors lined up for our April boutique and I can't wait for you all to see what I have in store for you! I appreciate your support more than you will ever know and I hope the boutique will continue to be a success. Every year it seems to grow more and more and I feel so blessed to be a part of something so great! Thank you and check back soon for more exciting news...
